I was at work less than an hour when my husband called. Something was wrong with Cranberry. Before I left for work he told me that she hadn't eaten breakfast, but neither had Yaz or Lowenstein. Again, it was just the house situation, I thought. I had already been planning to take Cranberry to the vet on Friday. She was coughing a bit and with her heart issues, I knew she needed to be seen. I told my husband I'd call and see if they could get her in today. They said they had drop off appointments available and they would be able to work her in this morning. Lee immediately took her in.
I figured he'd drop her off and we'd hear something later in the morning, so I was surprised when I heard from him right away. The vet suggested imaging and blood work. He thought she was probably in heart failure and from feeling her belly, suspected there may have been a tumor on her liver and she was bleeding into her belly. We can't afford the cost of the testing right now (who knew it would cost so much to sell a house?) and frankly, we knew that even if we could treat the heart failure, a tumor would be really bad news. She already had several growths removed and we suspected at least one of them was cancer (and would eventually spread to her chest).
Lee wanted to just take her home. By this time, her breathing was becoming labored. The vet suggested euthanasia and that if she went home there was a good chance she would die. Lee said he couldn't make the decision without me, so I left work and headed to the vet.
When I got there, they were in the lobby. Cranberry didn't even wag her tail when she saw me. I knew that was a really bad sign. The vet went over everything he had told Lee and we decided the right thing to do was to let her go. It was hard. It always is. We were there with her when she left this earth. We told her we love her and that she's a good dog. I told her to say hello to Heloise for us.
I used to have two dogs. Now I have a hole in my heart.
I'm so sorry....it's so difficult to lose a furbaby. (((hugs)))
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My heart breaks for you.. That was so quick. Deep rumbly purrs of healing and condolence
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ReplyDeleteWe understand the hole in the heart. So sorry for the loss of Cranberry. A warm hug, purrs and paw taps of comfort.
ReplyDeleteHolding you close in my thoughts, I know that this was so very difficult, and this week I counseled another friend who had to help her kitty (my Brighton's mother) cross the bridge. I am here for you if you need to talk, anytime, really...May the love you shared comfort you as you go on without her next to you...though always in your heart...
ReplyDeleteI'm unspeakably sorry. Losing them so quickly - it's just beyond hard.
ReplyDeleteWe are so sorry! So much going on at your house right now- sending prayers, purrs, pawsitive thoughts and much comfort to all of you.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you lost her in the middle of all the craziness, and unexpectedly too. She made the most of every moment until she couldn't because she'd rather leave you happy memories.
ReplyDeleteWe are so very sorry. Sending you lots of comforting purrs and hugs...
ReplyDeleteWe're so sorry, Amy. Purrs, prayers and all good thoughts as you mourn the loss of your beloved Cranberry.
ReplyDeleteI'm just heartbroken for you. Having experienced that "feeling" myself all too recently, followed by the sudden loss of a beloved pet, there's just nothing harder. {{{Hugs}}}
ReplyDeleteI'm so, so sorry. My heart is breaking for you.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear this. It's always hard when we have to let our fur babies go. My thoughts are with you,
ReplyDeleteI am so heartbroken for you, Amy. Sending hugs and lots of love during this sad time.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for you Amy.
ReplyDeleteI wish I had words to soothe your soul. Collectively we've been through so many of these losses that smash our hearts into zillions of pieces, one would think one of us would have found the holy grail of words. But there just are none. The best I can do is tell you I feel your pain, and understand what you are feeling and going through. You lost a child, a soul, a best friend. I'm sending you gentle hugs from me, and purrs and gentle head bonks from my three cats, Nicklaus, Dusty and Isadora.
ReplyDeleteWe are so very sorry for your loss. Purrs of comfort and paws of sympathy. Alasandra, Socks, Scylla, Fenris, Tuiren, Yin, Yang and Chimera from Alasandra the cats and dogs
ReplyDeleteWe are so very sorry for your loss. Purrs of comfort and paws of sympathy. Alasandra, Socks, Scylla, Fenris, Tuiren, Yin, Yang and Chimera from Alasandra the cats and dogs
ReplyDeleteoh no.....Amy and Lee, we are SO VERY SORRY! you did a wonderful thing adopting a senior dog and giving her all the love in the world.... hugs and purrs
ReplyDeleteSo sorry Amy, they never really leave. She's with you forever.
ReplyDeleteI am sure that she has found happiness and no pain. Run free Cranberry.
I am so very very sorry.
ReplyDeleteI wish that there were words to make this alright. I'm so sorry. Know that you gave her a wonderful life.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry. Sebastian is with her again.
ReplyDeleteWe are so sorry for your loss and wish we could take your pain away. Your love for Cranberry and her love for you will never die.
ReplyDeleteAmy, I am so sorry you lost Cranberry. The hole in your heart is because you loved this special dog a lot and that leaves an empty space. I have one in my heart where Dash is supposed to be. Hang in there.
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